Friday, 21 November 2014

She wanted to feel it again
maybe it was time to let go
Time to move on
Time for a new beginning or no...
Not sure
That feeling of new adventures was growing inside her
E o friozinho na barriga voltou
She wanted him to show more interest, 
to be more enthusiastic
To want more and be more
She wanted more
More from him, more from her
She wanted new things and thought that maybe they could grow together but that never seemed to happen.
She was always kind of taking a step back.
She was able to get involved and enjoy but he seemed never to want that, maybe he wanted to move on but didn't know how. It seemed that everything was harder for him and she didn't really understand that. She kept going but she was getting tired of being pulled back. Tired of not getting anything back from him. She thought she was the only one making an effort for things to work out, to make him happy. She really was getting tired of not receiving anything back at all. No efforts, no interest and she was also getting tired of always having to impress and to prove she was good and interesting, trying to make it all work out, but always by herself.  She wondered if it was the same with others. Maybe she had accustomed him to be that way. It was getting to a point where she wasn't going to stand it for very long...
She wanted someone to woo her, to make her feel loved and special. She wanted to feel desired and wanted someone to take initiative and all that. Maybe she needed to be alone for a while, travel and meet new people.
If only he showed some kind of interest, she could stay longer dedicating herself but the tiredness of not being reciprocated was growing and growing. She wasn't  going to feel sad, oh no! She would go and persue her wishes and dreams and if he wasn't going to follow her then oh well!...it's just life...in truth she wanted to follow him but he wasn't going anywhere and it seemed that if he was, he wasn't taking her with him so she decided not to wait any longer and decided to fly with her own wings and go as high as she possibly could and be happy.

No comments:

Post a Comment